Day 36

Day 36: Real Time
Day One: 21 Day Complaint Free Journey


I’m back to Day One.

And I’m at a loss. For the first time, my doubt for a successful 21 days….ever….is rattling me.

“Our actions are all too frequently driven rather than undertaken in awareness, driven by those perfectly ordinary thoughts and impulses that run through the mind like a coursing river…..We get caught up in the torrent and it winds up submerging our lives as it carries us to places we may not wish to go….”

That passage is from Jon Kabat-Zinn’s book called “Wherever You Go There You Are.” I’m reading it for the second time right now, and it looks like I might have to read it perpetually into my future.

I faced a work-related situation last night that is defeating me right now in my quest to go 21 days without complaint. Without making this a complaint in itself, let’s just say that the events that unfolded between 5:30 and 7:30 yesterday evening were so unprofessional and infuriating that it was impossible for me….literally impossible….NOT to process it with other people. And they were NOT folks who could fix the problem in any way.

They WERE people who care about me and are willing to listen to whatever I had to say as I literally tore into those who caused the problem. I don’t know what else I could have done. I needed to talk about it. I simply had to talk about it.

So, here I sit today, still seething. I’m "submerged in the torrent and going to places I don’t want to go" in my emotions and my thoughts about my employment with this company.

Day One….again.