Day 51

Day 51: Real Time
Day 1: 21 Day Complaint Free Journey



The topics that defeat me are always the same. I’ve noted that here before, but I keep succumbing to them anyway.

Let me be a bit more specific. Maybe that will help.

Our city government.

The educational system, both locally and nationally.

Incompetence in general.

Parents who don’t parent.

These are the topics that loom before me on this path, like iron-enforced walls full of jagged nails, ready to impale me when I get too close.

And yesterday I found myself facing the first one on the list again. I threw myself against the nails on its wall, and in that moment, gave no thought to the damage I was about to do.

I stumbled back, took a breath, and realized what I had done. Again. The figurative blood dripped down my chest, soiling my good intentions to be complaint free. What would have been my Day 6.

I moved my bracelet and literally hung my head as I did it.

These topics are close to my heart. Therefore, my heart is in danger when they are in the vicinity. I have done what I can to affect the outcomes of all of them, and have turned those gauntlets over to younger, more resilient folks. However, they still have the power to enrage me. I just can’t seem to shake them.

Maybe I should engrave their names on a silver wrist bracelet as a more tangible reminder: DANGER! STAND BACK! DON’T ENGAGE!

I will not be defeated in the long run, though. I just won’t.

Day 1.