Day 52

Day 52: Real Time
Day 1: 21 Day Complaint Free Journey


Acceptance.

Acceptance.

Acceptance.

Maybe if I say it enough times I’ll begin to practice it.

Holding a mirror up to merely reflect what is happening around me. Instead of judging what is happening. And then complaining about it.

My aspiration is to observe and reflect the actions, speech, attitudes of others, without carrying the baggage of the past or the taint of my own prejudices into the room.

Maybe someday I’ll reach that goal. I am making some small strides toward it, like yesterday morning when the first topic on yesterday’s list came up again. I started to exhibit extreme non-acceptance, but jerked myself back at the last moment.

“I’m sorry that happened,” I said instead. “I’m glad no one was hurt.” (You’d have to be there, but the details are not important here.)

I was seething inside, though. I REALLY wanted to launch.

Baby steps.

The rest of the day was good, too. Acceptance reigned, I was calm and reflective, no complaints, even as I met a friend for dinner and we talked. Usually dangerous territory for me.

Then I blew it over something trivial and totally unimportant. I didn’t “reflect,” that’s for sure. I took that mirror and stuck my whole head through it.

And, to make it even worse, I posted it on a social networking site for everyone to see.

Acceptance….even for myself and my failings.

Day 1.